A little bit stronger…

I am getting stronger (I usually say better like I am sick or something). I do not cry every day anymore about what I think things should be, or what I feel I am missing. I am feeling content it being Aiden and I. Although few and far between I even have those days that I feel I am doing a good job as a mother and life in general. It’s amazing to me how little things can make you return to a moment though, a smell, a taste, a song etc. I went to Florida and ate at a BBQ place. Aiden asked me to have some of his BBQ sauce. As soon as I tasted it, it took me back to when we lived in SC and went to this restaurant for the first time and Billy would not leave me alone until I tried the sauce he liked. Or when I went to the Air Force football game a couple weeks ago driving through the gate made me tear up. I know dumb. Or how I can not eat dots anymore. I am getting stronger though a little every day. At this rate I should be back to normal in about 14 years!



A Little Bit Stronger lyrics ~Sara Evans

Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger
Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger
And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger
Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger
And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger
Getting along without you, baby
I'm better off without you, baby
How does it feel without me, baby?
I'm getting stronger without you, baby
And I'm done hoping we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change
I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger
Just a little bit stronger
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger